monsters inside my head

it's getting colder

and so is my heart

it's getting dark

and so are my thoughts

i hear voices

calling out to me 

calling out for me

they're getting louder

there are monsters

not under my bed

but inside my head

they say they're hungry

they keep screaming loud

sucking the air out from my lungs

squeezing my heart till it almost stops

they're tormenting me

and they will not stop

until i stop breathing

...

it's been a month

since he told me that he loves me
and he has given me

a million reasons why he does

but i still can't believe it

and won't ever believe it

because why would anyone love me

when i can't even love myself

all the things they said

coward

lame

weak

loser

worthless

they said to her

slut

whore

hoe

scum

she laughed

but it broke her inside

fat

ugly

stupid

freak

and she started to cut

she thought she could control herself

but she couldn't

she couldn't take this pain

she couldn't handle this world anymore

she gave up

tears streamed down her cheeks

blood streamed out her veins

....

....

....

....

beautiful

smart

pretty

lovely

they said at her funeral